How i wished i can go back to being the girl who used to believe that the world is a simple and fair place where good people get good returns and the bad begets their ill-karma. Or that relationships were really that easy to upkeep and straight-forward. I feel like that i've seen and experienced so much in the past 1 year til date that has made me a different person in some perspective of life.
A close friend of mine recently underwent a break-up and it was due to betrayal of the bf. Seeing the hurt and sadness that it caused, i cant help but attempt to arm myself subconsciously with enough mental strength to withstand the same amt of pain should the unfortunate also happen to me. This is especially so because i feel that i can particularly relate to how she is feeling from certain similarities in our way of thinking. And seeing the pain and hurt from my friend scares me because i feel that it can also happen to me. And usually the first cut is the deepest. Its not because i dun trust my partner, but rather it seems that "what can go wrong can go wrong" as opposed to the "things will turn out fine" thinking that i used to hold. Does it seem like a joke now to know that i used to be so simple and naive? But it also means that i have less worry and concern than because certain things nv occur to me. Perhaps I've finally grown up enough now to realise what some of my friends realised long ago. Nothing is certain in this world. And i know for a fact that he already holds this same view many yrs ago when i was still holding a simple and naive view. At that pt in time, i didn't understand the skeptism but now i do.
Its extremely sad to hold regrets in life. Regret that you didn't do enough to make it work. Regret that you could have done better. Regret that you ignore all the signs and warnings. Regret that you cant be with the one that you love. Above all, the feeling that you can never turn back time and change anything. And all of us should make sure that we avoid such regrets in life because the feeling sucks big time after that! But sometimes life hands out such ordeals to us so as to allow ourselves to learn from our mistakes. We are who we are based on how we handle difficult situations. And hopefully we become a better person after experiencing the hardship. At the same time we also learn to treasure what we have right now before its too late...
So for all my friends out there, i hope dearly that you guys will never need to face such pain and sadness in your life but if it really happens, then know that you can also count on your friends and family to be there for you because i know i can.
Ade's Anatomy
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Sunday, January 10, 2010
I had another one of those dreams again...its e 4th or 5th time in the past 6mths.
Dreams are supposed to be a reflection of one's subconscious mind so what does it all mean? And importantly when will it finally stop?
My mind is apparently more fragile than it seems...
Friday, January 01, 2010
Happy New Year to all! The shitty 2009 is finally put to rest behind us and 2010 is staring right at us in the eye! I don't know about u guys but 2009 is currently tops on my worst year to date. Its been a crap year of gloomy recession, non-existence sales results, crazy bosses(its not just 1 but a few), grouses in the private life and an utter year of feeling like shit and lost in life!!! I also do know of friends who had many an unhappy moments in 2009 and May all these be put right behind us now!
2010 will be the year where i step out of my comfort zone. The year when i undertake a new challenge in my career as a Relationship Manager. A change in bank, change in colleagues, change in bosses and change in the way i have to conduct my business. While it is extremely scary to make such changes because i may well fluke spectacularly, but at the same time i can sense this tingling feeling in me as i am about to embrace this new role. Its been a while since i've felt like this at work because it has been pretty much a gloomy affair for this entire year. Hell, i've been a totally grumpy and gloomy person for the whole of 2009! And i'm going to reclaim back my old self! The 1 month plus hiatus before i started my new job has been a very good period of quiet calmness to find back myself. When we are pulled out of the hectic rat race, u begin to see more clearly what are the values and things that u treasure in life. And this is especially so in my line of work because its so easy to lose yourself while you're in pursuit of all the monetary desires and numbers. Identifying my core values are what is needed to keep me grounded going forward. I definitely do not want it to be another 3 years later when i change my job again before i find back myself.
And now do i dare to do this...setting New Year Resolutions! Haha...ok maybe i won't name them as such. It'll be just a list of mindful reminders for the new yr :p
1. Stay happy and contended, pure and simple.
2. Travel more. Pls make Australia happen in 2010! And maybe i can add in a couple of other small trips to fulfil point 1 :)
3. Learn to manage myself better at work. Sigh i really have to stop being so easily affected by stupid ppl.
4. Have a healthy lifestyle. Maybe taking up tennis and some other sports more actively this yr. Plus the fact that e hsbc babies have also resolved to start doing some outdoor sports together rather than keep gg out to eat and drink...haha...
5. Meet up often with the people who keep me grounded. Yes, that means u! E uh-oh gang, e glitter gals, e jc gang and the babies!
6. To be more patient, understanding and independant for us. In other words, find my own inner peace...
So with that-
Sunday, December 13, 2009
T.R.U.S.T
What is this 5 letter word really? Its definition based on Dictionary.Com means
- reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence
- a person on whom or thing on which one relies
- to permit to remain or go somewhere or to do something without fear of consequences
- to believe
and many more in different aspects but i feel that these are the ones that i can relate to. How difficult or amazing is it that oneself can put such faith and belief in another person? Other than our families, we all started out as absolute strangers whom we had no contact or experience with for the previous part of our lives. But how is it that for some of us, we find it easy to place our trust in certain selected people of our lives while there are others who find it difficult to trust another at all?
To be honest, i categorize myself as the former group where i usually find it easy to put my trust in the selected people around me. It could be due to the environment that i was brought up and surrounded with, i met good and kind people who had no reason for me to take back the trust that i placed in them. And for this i am grateful and blessed. But as i open up my world to more pple, i realized that this is not a given thing nor is it something that holds infallible. It is sooo difficult for someone else to place their trust in you without any doubt just because U are U. And why should we do that because we are putting ourselves in a situation of vulnerability should our trust gets betrayed. And i've finally seen for myself how hurt and pained it is for one to be betrayed of that trust in the people you cared lots about.
And like a mirror once broken, its cracked. How long will it take for the trust to be regained back? If ever?... I didn't use to think much about this issue because to me it was easy to trust and be trusted. But i now realised that trust should never be taken for granted because it is such a hazy and non-concrete thing which is ultimately based on just feelings without any hard evidence or logic! Its either you trust the person or not. And the person being given the trust should also appreciate that its one of the most invaluable gift that another human can give upon to you. And thus should also work upon preserving that without just taking it for granted that it will always be yours.
It hurts badly when someone betrays your trust in them which is why I'm more concerned than ever that i DO NOT EVER want to do that to anyone in my life who trusts me. Because i do not ever wish to inflict that kind of pain and hurt on them as i do not wish for that to happen to me too. Do not do upon others what you do not wish to be done on you. Life seriously sucks at certain period of time and most likely we cant do anything about it but to just ride it out. Like what Forrest Gump said "Shit happens!"... ... ...but we all wish we can just flush it away that easily... ... ...
Monday, November 16, 2009
Day 4: Beitou
A look at our simple hotel room...
And the crux lies in the bathroom where each hotel room comes equipped with an individual private hot spring spa so that guest can enjoy the hot spring 24/7 in the comfort of their rooms. Me and darl maximised the usage of the hot spring by soaking in it 3 times.
Us goofing ard with the SLR as u can see...somehow i really love this pic of us posing in front of the mirror...
Posing in front of the resort, we're waiting for the shuttle bus to bring guests down to the Mrt station.
And a sneak peek at their outdoor hot spring area. Its open to the public who do not have to stay at the resort and its uni-sex. Guests are required to wear bathing suits in similar to that of swimming pools and there are mini hot spring pools for you to try out. Darl looked like a papparazi sneaking shots of the pool.
We managed to reach Danshui in time to catch a glimpse of the gorgeous sunset. We took lots of pics with the sunset...



After which we took a 10mins boat ride to Fisherman's Wharf...
Isn't it nice with all the lights...Fisherman's Wharf is also known as the 情人桥. So romantic...

We took a walk along the Danshui Old Street for snacks.
They were selling this tall ice-cream of melon and vanilla flavor if i'm not wrong but i might have forgotten already because i only took 2 mouthful of this ice-cream! 2! darl just kept holding the cone and slurping it happily. He only offered it to me the 1st time and then
e 2nd time i saw it, it was like this already!!! And after my 2nd mouth, there was no more! Bleah~just give the man an ice-cream and u can literally measure his length of love for me le...2 mouthfuls...
We hang out around Ximenting area but didn't really bought any stuffs there.
Outside a bubble tea shop which is everywhere in taiwan. And its nice...
And guess what, we saw a stall selling curry Fishballs and we couldn't resist buying them to try so as to see if its comparable to the ones in HK. But of course its not as gd so it fits our theory that we can only go to HK to eat authentic curry fishballs...haha...

see...these are the gay men who happily paraded around with just a towel wrapped around them...and they were shouting loudly that they are gays!
Check out the man with the revealing butt! hurhurhur...
I love my MeeSua!!! Spore version cannot fight can...
We also found this in ShiLin Nite mkt!!! Its strawberries with sugar coating! We first discovered this when we were in Shanghai 4 yrs ago and since then we have not seen it anywhere else before! haha darl and i were so excited when we found this *loves*
The man with his all time fav 鲁肉饭...
We also love this drink of Lime Juice with jello...青蛙下蛋...we had this drink almost every day...
Finally its the end of our taiwan trip...ah...i cant bear to think that we'll have to wait for another yr before we head on for another trip. Hopefully our plan of visiting Australia next yr can be materialised :) Roadtrip roadtrip!!! Friday, November 13, 2009
Day 3: Jiufen





Our cosy room...
The best part is this enclosed balcony platform that has a view of the mountain and the sea. Total relaxation to just sit there with a cup of coffee admiring the view *loves* and don't u think this pic that i took for darl looked like something out of a fashion magazine...hurhurhur...
Outside our 民宿. 


Walking down the streets of Jiufen Old Street. Its full of foodies and souvenirs shops. Yes darl, 爱拼才会赢!!! 加油!!!
Super huge mushroom stalks grilled to a crisp!
Street style escargos...we weren't adventurous enuff to try it...hee...
And their 黑猪香肠! Gosh! Its e best 香肠 that we have ever eaten! We tried one and bought another to eat again later. Yums!

And their famous fishballs soup couple with what else but darl's fav 鲁肉饭! I told u we can eat this every single day of our trip le. But its thumbs up and very yummy!
Yu Yuan for desserts!!! Loves loves this! The yu yuan are all so chewy and nice. Wish spore had this done so finely here.
And this is the very yummilicous Mochi that YL recommended before our trip. Its filled with different ice-cream fillings insides which darl insist on buying 1 whole box for our own consumption there upon trying their samples at the shop earlier. I had serious doubts that we can finish e whole box but it really doesn't seem to be a concern for him so we brought them back to our room for savouring.
After eating so much so much, darl and i decided to go trek up the 基隆山 there coz the view is supposed to be very spectacular and darl is all anxious to take a lot of awe inspiring pics using the DSLR which he had borrowed from his cousin for our trip.
When we reached the treking trail at the mountain foot, it seems that the trail was closed and we cant proceed further. A chat with our hostel owner revealed that the trail had become too dangerous and they were doing some repairs for it.
We walked out onto Jiufen at night for dinner and the streets were a quiet and peaceful lot. This is where all the restuarants are located...
Our mushroom pot dinner...
Breakfast the next morning was at this little cafe just on top of our room. It has an amazing view of Jiufen at their outdoor balcony where guests can sit outside enjoying coffee and snacks.
The view from the cafe balcony...

And when we were about to leave Jiufen, we wandered into the adjacent room and took a peek insides as the auntie was clearing the room. Apparently its a joint room for a group of 4 that has a gathering area with a view like this. Looks cool doesn't it...

We played ard with darl's cam at the railway station trying to capture shots like that of a postcard haha...very fun to play with a SLR. And most of the pics were that of me since darl just like taking the shots while i dun mind being e model...haha...ya i noe i'm a bit of a narcissistic but its fun trying to take different kinds of shots! Ah...can u sense that i'm a little itching to get a SLR for the fun of it now already...sigh...
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
U know before facebook, i used to document all my holiday trips here with lots of pics and details of what i did. Now it seems that as pics are posted on fb where every has already seen it, i've became lazy to detail my trips here. But fb is nv gg to be e same as here coz more memories can be documented and kept here with more efforts so here's a look at my 1wk long taiwan trip!
Day 1 and 2: Taipei CityThe start of our 1 wk long deserved break :) we took ChinaAir and i must say darl and i was very happy with their in-flight entertainment haha...thank god they had individual screens for each seats and their movie selections was very new and exciting! I watched hmm..."Time Traveller's Wife" and another movie which i've forgotten on e 4.5hrs flight there. Darl was very excited by the movie selection when we were browsing through the cataloge too! So e 2 of us entertained ourselves by watching our individual movies through e ride. E only sad thing is we couldn't get a window seat on both our journey to and fro taiwan so i had no chance to take a look of taiwan via aerial view.
Upon reaching the very destituted TaoYuan Airport Terminal 1, we went in search of the express bus that can take us to where our hotel is. U have to buy the bus tics (Fei Gou Express Bus) from booths like this found at the corner of the airport. Its really very convenient as they bring u almost to your hotel doorstep and u can also call for pickup from your hotel on ur day of departure to the airport which saves u from lugging your heavy luggage on e train. But my friend did advise that taking e bus might run the risk of heavy traffic jams if ur flight timing runs in e evening peak hr times but luckily for us, e ride was pretty smooth and it was just abt 45mins before we reach our hotel door.
We stayed in a hotel near the Taipei Main Station called See You Hotel. Its quite a distance via their underground shopping area from the hotel to the mrt station but the hotel is very clean and within walking distance from Ximenting so it was still a very comfortable stay.Check out our humongous king size bed! haha...totally rocks can! Ah and plus the fact that every hotel we stayed in taiwan has over 100 tv channels! Woohoo! My kind of entertainment heaven!
And we had beef noodles for our 1st lunch there which taste fantastic!
After which, we took off to Shilin Nite Mkt for a walk and of course for their famous taiwanese snacks!!!We had to order their famous "Fried Oyster" and "Chou(smelly) Toufu". The fried oyster was slimy and sweet packed with green veges so its really very different from e spore version but it was still ok. The smelly toufu on e other hand looked harmless on e plate but when me and darl tried it...
Ya, i basically felt like i was eating something sour from the "long gou" or food that has gone bad~! Gosh! how do pple eat this like a treat??? Me and darl had a few mouthful so as to be able to declare proudly that we had tried "chou toufu" before but we stopped at finishing up the entire plate...bleah...
We also queued up for the famous ShiLin Chicken Cutlet! That on the other hand lives up to its name and it was a huge juicy piece of meat that we happily munched on!
The 2nd day brought us to the famous Wu Fen Pu whole sale area for shopping!
As u can see its a intercrossed sections of shops filled to the brim with lots of clothes! Me and darl has high anticipation of finding lots of nice bargain clothes here but sadly we only had a couple of finds there at the end. There were so many shops with so much clothes and variety that it makes me giddy! And the fact that clothes there are for their fall seasons which amts to lots of woollen materials with lots of layerings. But ultimately i know its just due to my own lousy skills coz if some of my friends were there, they'll probably walked off with hands full of items.
But we did have a very good find there which is lunch at a place called "Hu Xu Zhang Lu Rou Fan" aka Moustache Zhang's Lu Rou Fan...highly recommended. Mention this to darl and u can almost hear him salivating as he recounts about this meal...

Me and darl totally love the "Lu Rou Fan" there! The best in our entire taiwan trip and let me tell u that we had "Lu Rou Fan" every day without fail! Why? Coz darl loves it very very much! And since their servings were often just a small mini bowl, we really can have this even as a snack EVERY single day on our trip without fail :)
We wandered off to have dinner at Jay Chou's italian restuarant call Mr J and chanced upon the Taipei 101 building within sights on our way.
A look at the interior of the restaurant. It wasn't very crowded coz we went there on a weekday. I heard that reservations are needed on wkends.

The food wasn't fantastic although their pricing was surprisingly quite cheap going by spore standard. My plate of Al Fungi pasta only cost abt S$12-14 and our escargo appetizer only cost S$9. Pretty cheap considering the fact that its a celebrity restaurant with decent decor and very large servings. Worth a trip for fans of Jay Chou but other than that the food is only so so :)

The restaurant beside it is call "Mr Qute" which is also owned by Jay. It basically sells desserts and the 2 restaurants are linked. The story goes that Jay originally wanted to open a series of restaurants naming them after poker cards thus Mr J was the 1st one. But coz Jolin released her song Mr Q first so Jay had to call his 2nd shop Mr Qute instead of the Mr Q he wanted...haha...i'm such a trivia buff for news like this :p
So this ends of our 2nd day of taipei with me and darl relaxing in our hotel rooms with our 115 tv channels and face masks to replenish our moisture and glow or whatever the face masks package says...haha...